Reminiscing The Past (My First Love Letter)

I had my OPM sound trip earlier and one of my most favorite OPM love song is Parting Time by Rockstar. This was the song that I sang in Gaisano Country Mall Videoke Machine way back in college years that I got a score of 62. I don't know how the machine was calibrated since some were getting a score of 92, 93, and 95 when they did only was shouting. Anyway, the emotion was there when I sang it. Basically also the reason why I don't use microphones now when I sing . But apart from this experience of getting low scores in a videoke machine, this song reminds me of the love that I experienced but I never completely had.

It was on a day prior the Christmas of 2005 that I gave my first ever written love letter to her as a sign of courtship. But she loved me only as a brother. Though it hurted me but I respected her decision because I love her.  Now, she already has her own happy family and I am very happy for her. I always pray to God that I will also have my own.

Anyway, I am sharing to you this beautiful love letter that I gave to her on Dec. 24, 2005.   

Dec. 24, 2005

My Dearest  _________,

Each day as the sun rises, everyone thinks of a new hope for a better day and tomorrow. With the single sun ray that strikes gives everyone the assurance that wonderful things will happen. But in my life, as the sun does its usual task of rising and setting, it doesn’t give me an impression that something unique will happen. Just an ordinary day for me, doing my work, having fun with friends and things just keep moving in its routine. As I live it everyday, it doesn’t bring me any surprises nor am I doing something to make it change. I always ask myself if I am afraid to try something else or to be with somebody else’s companion or if I am already contented with what life had showed me. However, when you came everything else changes. You give color to my one’s dull moments. I thought that with my friends and families beside me always, I could no longer ask for more. But when I saw you, I realized that part of me is missing and empty and it’s you who completed me and made me as a whole. As I grow older everyday, I ask and pray to God that he will give me the right girl at the right time. Someone who will accept me in spite of any differences. Someone who will make me feel of what I really am and would make me feel what a wonderful person I would become and that I could make her feel how special she is and how grateful I am to be with her. Before I never understand why I keep on searching and praying for something or for someone nor ever I understand what I really am searching for. Until someone showed me and made me see that what I long for in my life is just a simple person who made wonderful changes in me---it’s you.

And now, when I see the sun rises, it no longer holds an ordinary day for me since I already am looking forward of seeing the girl who made my life even worth living and made me realized the beauty of what I call life. I thank you for putting things in me everything in place and no words can ever best explain on how I truly am in love with you and I always will. I promise to God that I will treasure you, which is God’s precious gift to me and I will do everything to keep the trust and my love forever.

Though you may be separated miles away and I may already seldom see the aesthetic and internal beauty that you possess but what keeps me holding on is my hope and faith that someday God will permit that you’ll made me part of you and God only knows if I would get there. I’ll just continue hoping and praying, with His light from above, I know he will lead me to the right place and way.

Merry Christmas and Happy  New Year!

Take care always. Stay very beautiful inside and out.

With Love Always,

Randy